36: The “I-Want Trap” – On Desire and the Life That Is Already Here

00:00:00: Hello, hello my love and welcome to this new episode of the Bayonne podcast.

00:00:04: I'm super happy you're here!

00:00:06: And today i want to speak about something that sounds very innocent at first... Something we just all say.

00:00:14: Something that seems completely natural which is the words I WANT.

00:00:28: And of course, desire itself is not wrong.

00:00:31: Actually, Desire is sacred!

00:00:33: Desire moves us, desire expands us... Desire shows what life wants to experience through us.

00:00:40: But there's a very important distinction I want to speak about today Because There' s the difference between I would love this and need it in order finally feel okay This where so many people unconsciously suffer.

00:00:56: Because somewhere along the way, desire stops being expansion and becomes desperation.

00:01:02: It stops being.

00:01:03: how beautiful that I get to want this... ...and become my life is not enough until this arrives!

00:01:10: And i really want you feel it today because this changes the whole energy behind manifestation.. ..behind receiving creation even happiness itself The Energy Behind Wanting.

00:01:23: You already know this.

00:01:24: What we focus on becomes bigger, not only spiritually also neurologically.

00:01:29: Your nervous system is constantly filtering reality for what feels important.

00:01:35: your system amplifies but you focus on and This become very important when it comes to desire Because many women begin their manifestation journey from a beautiful place, at first it feels expansive.

00:01:49: I would love to create this!

00:01:52: This excites me and lights up my heart.

00:01:55: And that energy is beautiful.

00:01:57: But then very subtly something shifts.

00:02:00: The desire becomes emotionally loaded.

00:02:03: Suddenly It's no longer I desired this.

00:02:07: Now i need this.

00:02:10: And underneath the manifestation practice, there is actually a painful belief running.

00:02:15: I do not have it!

00:02:17: My life isn't enough yet…I am still waiting for the real thing... ...I cannot fully relax until this

00:02:22: arrives.".

00:02:23: This is where wanting becomes exhausting because now your whole nervous system is orbiting around absence.

00:02:31: Here desire turns into lack and that's something i've observed so often especially in conscious women.

00:02:39: And yet underneath all of it, there can still be this quiet desperation.

00:02:43: If this finally works I can relax!

00:02:46: if the money finally comes then i will feel safe... ...if a relationship finally arrives than i'll feel loved.. ..If my life finally looks different and i'l feel worthy Can you feel this pressure inside that?

00:03:00: And the irony is, The more desperate a wanting becomes.

00:03:04: The heavier energy gets because desire itself expands you but emotional dependency contracts You.

00:03:12: so one says life Is already beautiful and I would love even More.

00:03:17: on the other says Life is incomplete until this arrives and those are completely different frequencies.

00:03:26: So there is something else I want to bring into this conversation, because many people believe manifestation means if a desire hits strongly enough it should happen immediately.

00:03:36: And when that does not happen immediately fear enters doubt enters pressure and forcing enters... ...and suddenly the whole relationship with desire becomes tense.

00:03:48: But what if life isn't late?

00:03:50: What If There Is A Deeper Intelligence Moving Beyond Your Personal Timeline?

00:03:55: There is a divine timing woven into life itself.

00:03:58: A timing that does not move according to pressure, fear or human impatience but according to readiness alignment and deeper wisdom.

00:04:08: And even though the human part of us often wants things immediately Life sometimes waits until our soul Our nervous system & identity are truly able to receive what we asked for Because life still preparing us.

00:04:24: Sometimes, there are things we still need to learn.

00:04:27: Ways We Still Need To Grow.

00:04:28: Depth We Still Need To Embody And forcing something before we're ready often creates suffering instead of fulfillment.

00:04:37: I can honestly say that in my own life i have always received Things In The Moment I Could Truly Hold Them Not necessarily when My Ego Wanted them But When I Was Actually Ready And looking back, I can see the wisdom in that so clearly.

00:04:54: But here's the thing – knowing this really knowing it does not make waiting easy because there is a part of us who understands trust and another one wants to do something.

00:05:07: That feels like stillness is weakness, that feels like patience falling behind.

00:05:12: And that is where most of the suffering actually lives, not in a desire itself.

00:05:17: But what we do with the gap between who are and when you want to be?

00:05:22: Most people don't suffer because they have desires.

00:05:25: They suffer for trying to accelerate life from fear.

00:05:30: They pull, push their force Overwork or think over control.

00:05:35: Do you know this?

00:05:37: Because underneath it all is the belief.

00:05:40: if this does happen soon something will go wrong And this creates enormous tension in the body, especially around money.

00:05:49: Money is one of places where people most quickly leave trust and enter panic because money easily becomes connected to survival worthiness freedom safety and love... ...and then the nervous system grips.

00:06:02: I need more!

00:06:03: I NEED THIS NOW!

00:06:04: Why is it not here yet?

00:06:06: What am i doing

00:06:07: wrong?!

00:06:08: And the more contracted we become, The more we disconnect from the very frequency We are trying to create.

00:06:16: Because creation does not happen well From desperation.

00:06:19: It happens from alignment The space in between.

00:06:23: So what happened while something has Not arrived yet?

00:06:26: This is the real practice.

00:06:29: Can you still love your life In that in-between?

00:06:33: can You feel a life Before everything looks the way you imagined?

00:06:37: Can you still experience beauty while something is unfolding?

00:06:41: Because this space between desire and manifestation, it's where most people abandon themselves.

00:06:50: They stop living they stopped enjoying.

00:06:52: actually they postpone joy And they postponed presence and gratitude.

00:06:58: So then make life conditional!

00:07:01: Suddenly years go by in a state of waiting Waiting to finally begin living.

00:07:07: But hey, life is happening now and this is such a profound shift.

00:07:13: Your desires are allowed to add to your life but they were never meant to replace relationship with life itself.

00:07:21: And when that relationship breaks down?

00:07:24: When life becomes only a gap to be filled something very cry at start should disappear.

00:07:30: Which is the ability actually see what it's already here.

00:07:34: You know Life Is Already A Miracle.

00:07:38: I think one of the deepest wounds many people carry is that they no longer really see their life.

00:07:44: They only see what's missing, What has not happened yet?

00:07:48: What still needs to change and slowly The nervous system becomes strained To focus on absence.

00:07:57: But your life itself Is already so extraordinary!

00:08:03: breathing, feeling loving experiencing growing laughing learning being moved by beauty.

00:08:10: this is not small and i know this can sound simple but it is actually deeply transformative because when you reconnect to the miracle of being alive your desires stop carrying the entire weight of your happiness.

00:08:25: now desire becomes playful again creative again expansive again.

00:08:29: Now you can say, yes I want more.

00:08:31: But not from emptiness but from overflow.

00:08:35: Desire as an addition Not a rescue.

00:08:40: So this is the shift i really want to feel today.

00:08:43: Your desires are not here to rescue yourself.

00:08:47: They're here expand your experience of life.

00:08:50: That's very different Because if believe in dreamlife will finally make enough You'll suffer even after receiving it.

00:08:59: There are people with money who are miserable, People with access to feel empty.

00:09:05: People with recognition Who still do not feel worthy because external things cannot permanently solve an internal disconnection from life And this is why embodiment matters so much.

00:09:18: Can you become available for joy now?

00:09:21: can You become available For gratitude Now!

00:09:25: Can you Become Available For Love

00:09:27: Now?!

00:09:28: Can you become available for a life now?

00:09:31: Because the moment, You stop waiting to receive and start allowing yourself To be something in your energy shifts.

00:09:39: You stopped reaching outward And you started moving from within.

00:09:43: So one of the biggest shift In my own life was understanding.

00:09:46: this Life moves through giving and receiving Not grasping and controlling.

00:09:53: so many people want to receive while remaining energetically closed.

00:09:57: They want life to pour into them while their whole body is contracted around lack.

00:10:03: But creation moves through circulation, and this does not only mean giving money or working harder – not at all!

00:10:11: I mean are you available to contribute?

00:10:13: To love?

00:10:14: To create?

00:10:15: To share?

00:10:16: To move energy?

00:10:18: To bring something beautiful in the

00:10:20: world?!

00:10:21: Because when your whole life becomes centered on what can i get?

00:10:25: The energy becomes heavy very quickly.

00:10:28: But when life becomes, how can I participate?

00:10:32: Everything opens up and strangely enough this is often when receiving begins.

00:10:37: naturally because you stop making life wait.

00:10:41: You stopped making yourself wait And in that space something quietly shifts.

00:10:47: the question is no longer When will i finally have enough?

00:10:51: it become something much more tender Something like What if I already do what?

00:10:58: If nothing is missing.

00:10:59: I know this question can feel confronting, but what if your life is not on hold?

00:11:06: What if these moment matters too?

00:11:08: What have every single moment matters?

00:11:12: What of this version of you?

00:11:13: even before everything arrives?

00:11:15: it's already worthy of love for joy or beauty of softness worth the pleasure and expansion Because I think many people unconsciously reject their current reality while trying to manifest a new one.

00:11:29: And rejection creates resistance, not because desire is wrong but because fighting your present moment create suffering.

00:11:38: You can't desire more and still laugh where you are –you can dream bigger until honor this chapter- you can move toward expansion without making yourself wrong…and honestly these changes everything Because when you stop fighting where you are, When you stopped needing this moment to be different before your can begin.

00:11:58: You become someone.

00:11:59: life actually move through Not some one waiting to be saved Someone who has learned how walk with Life And that Walk Has a name The energy of trust.

00:12:13: Real Trust is not passive.

00:12:15: Trust does not mean sitting on the couch readying for life To save you.

00:12:20: Trust means I continue moving, I continue creating.

00:12:24: I continue following what feels aligned and i release the obsession with controlling the timing.

00:12:30: that is trust.

00:12:33: And trust creates softness in the nervous system not collapse but softness and grounded knowing That life is moving even when you cannot fully see it.

00:12:43: and sometimes What feels like delay?

00:12:45: Is actually preparation.

00:12:47: Sometimes life is rearranging things for you in ways your mind cannot yet understand.

00:12:53: So maybe the question is not, how do I get this faster?

00:12:56: Maybe a deeper question is who am i while it's unfolding and really ask yourself Am I still available to joy ?

00:13:07: Am I connected with life?

00:13:08: ?

00:13:09: Am able love at that moment?

00:13:12: ?

00:13:13: Can notice beauty to experience every single moment of my life with the whole being.

00:13:22: Or have I made happiness dependent on a future version of reality?

00:13:27: Because if you cannot be present now, no future manifestation will permanently fix that!

00:13:34: So today i want invite into different relationship with desire as self-the one A more powerful and alive one You are allowed to want deeply.

00:13:48: you're allowed to desire abundance, love beauty expansion and freedom.

00:13:54: but let your desires come from devotion to life not from rejection of yourself.

00:14:00: Let your desires expand your life Not become conditions for your worth!

00:14:05: Let them add to the miracle not replace it.

00:14:08: And maybe this is a real manifestation.

00:14:10: work becoming someone who's deeply available for life.

00:14:13: now.

00:14:14: So...Let This Land For You.

00:14:18: This was such an important episode and I hope that you liked it.

00:14:23: Thank You so much for being here today, my dear.

00:14:25: So if this episode spoke to you?

00:14:27: It would love to hear from you And maybe you will even share with a friend That what actually like to hear is exactly now Send me a message or leave a comment.

00:14:38: This would mean the world For Me.

00:14:41: i'm sending you so Much Love and I cannot wait To meet you again in The next Episode on My Love Yours Michelle.