33: Out of Control – On Chaos, Divine Timing, and the Freedom to Receive More

00:00:00: Hello my love and welcome to this new episode.

00:00:04: Today I want to invite you into a space that may feel a little uncomfortable at first, maybe even confronting because today we are speaking about control or more precisely not in the sense of destroying your life, but in a sense no longer allowing you to live.

00:00:29: Your choices are receiving your love and money…your joy.

00:00:33: …your body …your expression …your timing …your becoming….to be ruled by control.

00:00:40: So before we go deeper I want for this moment what comes up when i say What if everything was allowed to change?

00:00:51: What if the structures you have built for safety were allowed to dissolve?

00:00:56: And what if the plants, You are holding on too we're allowed to fall apart.

00:01:02: What If The version of life you can protect is actually Too small For a version Of Life that wants To find you and feel That?

00:01:11: so what happens in your body?

00:01:13: does Your Body contract?

00:01:15: Does maybe fear rise?

00:01:18: Does a part of you want to say, oh no thank-you.

00:01:21: I need know what is coming and how this ends?

00:01:26: And we were raised in the world of control!

00:01:35: So most of us learned very early that control equals safety.

00:01:40: If i can control the situation then im safe.

00:01:47: how people see me, then I'm safe.

00:01:50: And if i can control my emotions...I am saved too!

00:01:55: So it's all about controlling our lives.

00:01:58: If i can't control my partner My money My body My business My future Then maybe nothing Can hurt Me.

00:02:06: and so we begin to control everything.

00:02:09: We want to control what happens When It Happens and How IT HAPPENS.

00:02:14: We want to control what other people say, how they behave.

00:02:17: How they love us and respond to us.

00:02:21: We want our partners tendering enough, masculine enough romantic enough independent enough devoted or ambitious enough.

00:02:29: we wanna control how much money comes in when Or how visible we are but only a way that does not expose too much huh?

00:02:39: We want the control of how successful you become where we still feel safe.

00:02:46: And so, we also want to control how much we receive but only in a way our nervous system can predict.

00:02:52: and here's the paradox The life you say you want may be asking for version of you that is no longer controllable A version of You That Is Too Alive To Be Managed By Fear Too Expanded To Fit Into Old Structures And Too Devoted To Truth To Keep Organizing Ourself Around Safety.

00:03:12: And this is where the conversation becomes really honest.

00:03:16: We control because at some point, Control felt like The only way to stay safe.

00:03:22: It felt Like the on-the-way To not be disappointed or surprised by pain... ...The Only Way to make life predictable enough to breathe.

00:03:31: So of course Control can feel intelligent But what if that very thing That once protected you Is now preventing the Life You're asking for from reaching you.

00:03:44: Control feels safe, yes but it often blocks receiving.

00:03:48: This was such a big realization for me on my own path For a long time.

00:03:54: control made me feel safe But at the same time control also kept me small.

00:04:02: Control prevented me from thinking really big Prevented huge amounts of money finding and preventing me becoming truly visible.

00:04:13: Control prevented me from being fully seen because I wanted to control that i would not be heard.

00:04:20: So, control often presents itself as wisdom.

00:04:24: it says... ...I am just being realistic or I'm just being careful.

00:04:29: but underneath controls often fear wearing a very intelligent outfit and Fear is nothing bad!

00:04:36: Fear is allowed to be there But fear should NOT BE the architect of your life.

00:04:42: Fear should not be the one designing your business or choosing a relationship.

00:04:47: Because fear can only create from what it already knows and life you are asking for may live completely beyond what fear can imagine.

00:04:57: So, the question is where am I controlling?

00:05:00: The deeper question is Where i'm controlled ?

00:05:06: Where Are You Controlled?

00:05:07: by Money ?

00:05:08: Or By Fear ?

00:05:10: Or by the need to be liked ?

00:05:13: by your timeline, your plans.

00:05:15: By the family things... even your partner's mood?

00:05:20: Where are you controlled?

00:05:22: But I believe that if we do not hold everything together Everything will fall apart.

00:05:27: And what if everything falling apart is Not always a problem?

00:05:32: What If sometimes Things Fall Apart Because they were never meant to Hold Your Next Level?

00:05:38: So what if Sometimes The Old Order has to dissolve so a new divine order can enter.

00:05:46: So chaos is not the enemy!

00:05:49: Now this is where we need to speak about chaos, most people hear the word chaos and immediately think oh whoa this is danger mass destruction.

00:05:58: something has gone wrong if there's chaos.

00:06:01: but hey what if chaos is NOT always the enemy?

00:06:04: What If Chaos Is The Space Between Two Orders?

00:06:08: The old order is no longer working, the new order has not fully landed yet and that in-between space feels wild.

00:06:17: It feels like you cannot hold onto to all anymore but also can't fully see the new.

00:06:22: And this exactly where most people panic.

00:06:25: they say oh no everything's out of control.

00:06:29: I must fix it immediately!

00:06:39: The shaking in it is not punishment, its rearrangement.

00:06:45: What if the universe was not destroying your life but reorganizing parts that could not come with you into next level?

00:06:53: So chaos isn't opposite of divine order.

00:06:56: Chaos is often doorway to divine order Because when everything is standing neatly in line, When Everything Is Predictable and Controlled there's often no space for the truly new.

00:07:12: But when things begin to move, when Things Begin To Shake... When Things Begin Open Something Else Can Enter a New Possibility A New Timeline And Actually A New Version of You!

00:07:25: A New Way Life can Meet you.

00:07:30: So..when I speak about Out of control, I am not speaking about losing yourself.

00:07:37: I'm speaking about the cage – how it has to happen because so many women say they want freedom but actually…they want controlled freedom!

00:07:50: They say that they want abundance and only if it arrives in a predictable way.

00:07:55: everything else seems too dangerous.

00:07:58: So they won't laugh but only if this never activates them really deeply.

00:08:03: They want visibility, but only if everyone claps.

00:08:09: so they won't expansion But only if nothing uncomfortable changes.

00:08:14: So maybe recognize yourself that you want a big life?

00:08:18: What do still want?

00:08:19: the old-life to remain untouched and this is where the frustration begins because You cannot ask for completely new reality while being completely loyal to the Old Order.

00:08:32: You cannot ask for wild expansion and still demand that everything stays tidy.

00:08:38: you can not ask to receive irrationally, unreasonably uncontrollably more while also trying to control exactly how much more is allowed to come in.

00:08:51: And of course often this happens Not In full consciousness But at some point you have to choose Do I want predictability?

00:09:02: Or do I want full creation?

00:09:05: Do i want to manage my life, or do I wanna be moved by Life.

00:09:11: And the moment you choose to move by Life, Life starts moving with You!

00:09:16: But often this happens through openings, challenges and sudden shifts that ask you to become bigger.

00:09:25: The Universe actually start throwing you balls...I love this image so much.

00:09:31: When you ask for more, when you ask bigger and a new reality the universe begins to throw your balls.

00:09:39: Which are opportunities, challenges unexpected conversations decisions openings closures invitations even triggers things you did not plan.

00:09:54: And then Many women say wait I asked for expansion, but not this.

00:10:00: They ask for love But now you have to become more vulnerable?

00:10:04: Asked for freedom, but know we have to let go of the structure that made me feel safe?

00:10:11: Yes exactly because when he asks for more life may not send you the finished result.

00:10:18: It often sends you the balls and your work is too.

00:10:21: catch them to juggle them to move with him And not to become hysterical and say, universe this is not what I meant.

00:10:29: But to say okay... ...I see something new is required of me now!

00:10:36: This is where creation becomes a sacred dance.

00:10:42: Here comes the second secret.

00:10:45: When you ask for chaos when asked out-of control or divine rearrangement You cannot attach a tight timeline Because time in this context is often just another form of control.

00:11:01: You cannot say, okay universe I am willing to create a little bit of chaos but please make sure everything is sorted by Friday!

00:11:10: That's not surrender that it's a control contract.

00:11:14: out-of-control is also out of time.

00:11:18: so when you invite cows you invite divine timing and divine timing does not always match your calendar.

00:11:26: It does not always match your ego's deadline.

00:11:50: It means you stop using action to control life and begin using actions to collaborate with life.

00:11:58: And that is very, very different!

00:12:01: Now let me ask you something... Do you actually ask for the big happiness?

00:12:08: Not the reasonable happiness.

00:12:10: I mean the really BIG happiness The happiness that floods your whole body the happiness that makes no sense, the happiness feels almost too good to be allowed.

00:12:24: The happiness where you receive love money beauty pleasure freedom luxury devotion success expansion not in tiny controlled portions but in a way that overflows your whole life.

00:12:41: Do You ask for That?

00:12:43: Or is there still part of you who believes I do not really deserve that.

00:12:48: That would be much too much, outside of control.

00:12:52: and yes it is outside of Control.

00:12:56: True receiving as often out side of control.

00:12:59: deep love real joy is Outside of control.

00:13:04: a life that exceeds your own imagination Is outside Of control?

00:13:09: And this why many women unconsciously avoid the very thing they desire because they want the big receiving, but do not want feeling of being overtaken by life.

00:13:23: But what if being overtaking is not dangerous at all?

00:13:28: What if it's exactly that your soul has been asking for?

00:13:33: you can feel everything... ...but be controlled by nothing!

00:13:40: Now this so important out-of control does not mean never to fear.

00:13:47: It means fear does not control you.

00:13:51: You may feel fear, but fear doesn't get to decide!

00:13:56: You may desire money... ...but money does NOT get to enslave you….

00:14:02: …you may desire love….

00:14:04: But a longing for Love DOESN'T GET TO CONTROL YOUR ENTIRE NERVOUS

00:14:08: SYSTEM!!!

00:14:09: And yes, YOU EVEN MAY FEEL GREEF, BUT GREEV DOES NOT GET TO BECOME YOUR

00:14:14: PRISON!!

00:14:16: You may feel desire, but desire does not get to make you abandon yourself.

00:14:21: And you may feel chaos... But chaos doesn't get to forget who you are.

00:14:26: and this is true freedom.

00:14:29: To be so deeply in life So open, so receptive, so available!

00:14:34: ...and still Not controlled by any of it.

00:14:39: You can be flooded with emotion.

00:14:40: It can be moved by love and still be rooted.

00:14:44: You can surrounded by uncertainty, and still choose!

00:14:48: And you can be in the unknown... ...and still be held.

00:14:56: So step aside.... ...and let something greater move.

00:15:03: There's a moment where your beautiful human mind has done enough.

00:15:08: Your Mind is brilliant.

00:15:09: Your mind can organize plan & think.

00:15:12: All of that has its place.

00:15:14: But when you're asking for the infinite, infinite freedom, infinite overflow.

00:15:19: Infinite beauty pleasure luxury love creation your mind cannot be the only leader anymore.

00:15:26: because a mind wants to know The infinite wants to move!

00:15:31: The mind wants proof !The infinite wants permission !

00:15:36: The mind asks how exactly will this happen ?

00:15:39: The infinite asks are you available?

00:15:43: And sometimes the most powerful thing you can do is step aside.

00:15:50: Step aside from the version of you who wants to manage everything.

00:15:55: No wonder so many women feel burned out.

00:15:58: They are trying to hold a life that they're asking to be danced with.

00:16:03: So, y'know?

00:16:04: The practice isn't only about tolerating cows but also learning how enjoy it To become curious and say Okay, what is being rearranged here?

00:16:17: What ball is the universe throwing at me now.

00:16:20: What if this isn't a breakdown but break through in motion and then you begin to play, juggle or move?

00:16:29: You start following energy and act when action required and softness is required.

00:16:37: You stop making chaos wrong.

00:16:40: And that's where life becomes magical Because you're no longer fighting the movement.

00:16:46: You are inside of that movement.

00:16:49: One of the deepest things about control I have learned is this... And the universe takes care of rest.

00:16:59: There's a part of your that exists Your desires, choices, body, yes and no Your presence, willingness.

00:17:08: And there also must become nothing.

00:17:12: Empty enough to receive, open enough.

00:17:15: be moved Uncontrolled enough to be surprised Free enough.

00:17:20: allow life.

00:17:21: bring you more than your current identity knows.

00:17:23: how create I am and i'm not.

00:17:29: I choose as a surrender move and im moved.

00:17:33: catch the balls let universe throw them.

00:17:37: This is out of control this divine chaos.

00:17:41: This is where creation becomes bigger than your plan.

00:17:46: So, my love I want to leave you with this question Where in your life are you still choosing control over creation?

00:17:55: And what if today You let something become a little more out of control Maybe you say universe show me!I am willing To catch the balls i'm willing to dance With the cows and be moved.

00:18:08: Then watch What Life Brings.

00:18:10: Watch what becomes possible when you stop forcing everything into the shape of what you already know.

00:18:16: So I think this is all i wanted to say To this wonderful subject Of chaos and letting go control.

00:18:25: so, I'm so curious What?

00:18:26: This episode brings up in you.

00:18:29: Do You feel fear When you hear it or maybe even excitement?

00:18:33: Are your control freak like I was for so long Or are you ready For The free fall Into Free flow.

00:18:42: Are you ready to let life bring your more irrational and uncontrollably in the most beautiful way?

00:18:49: Let me know, I would so love to know!

00:18:53: Write on Instagram or leave a comment telling how do they relate to cows being out of control And where are you ready for life surprises?

00:19:05: So it will mean the world.

00:19:07: If you would.

00:19:08: let me know if you appreciate this podcast, I should go on with it.

00:19:17: And thank you so much for being here!